I won't let it get to me.
I can't. Not this time.
Please let me be.
Please let me be able to just accept it.
Please give me some strength to just move on.
I don't want it to hurt me, but I want it to change me.

SITUATION A
1. I want to be able to never trust. Ever. To be able to stab someone in the back before they stab me. From this situation, I want to learn to not give a fuck about anyone. To do me and play everyone else. To treat people that I want to love the way you treated me. You liar. You skanky ass, back stabbing, bold-face LIAR. I hope he ruins your fucking life. I hope he ruins you the way you so carelessly ruined me. Heartless bitch.

SITUATION E
2. I want to be able to lie about the way I feel. To maybe just delete my emotions if possible. Can you do that? Can you simply remove emotions or feelings from your skull? I hope so. I want to be able to say "lets just fuck around, then go our own ways". I'm not saying that in a derogatory way at all, please don't misunderstand; I TRULY want that for myself. I want to be able to never get attached, never feel butterflies, never want anything MORE. Then I wouldn't feel so betrayed or be jealous for reasons I have no right to be jealous of. To never want. To never hurt. To simply, be.

OVER ALL
3. I want to learn to forget about people as easily as I'm forgotten. I want to be able to push people away. That's it. Just those few things. Please....I've never wanted anything so badly.