I understand it now.
She treats me the way I treat Cody.
I see a text from him, I ignore it.
She sees a text from she, she ignores it.
On the occasion i do answer, it's only a few texts.
On the occasion she answers, it's only a few texts.
I pretend to care about him.
She pretends to care about me.
I hate that I treat him like this knowing how awful it feels,
but it's made me aware of her exact feelings towards me.
I'm sorry I'm not good enough Amanda.
I've tried so hard for so long to be enough for you.
I should hate you, but I can't.
I should just let you go, but I could never.
So, I'll keep trying I guess.

But it's been said:
"It takes a lot of strength to hold on,
but it takes even more to let go."
Maybe I just need that strength;
The strength to set you free from the prison of my mind.